What an excellent morning! Already another month is ending.
If you haven't caught my new photoshoot - please, take a moment and check it out. :) My hair is recently a dreamy, pastel pink and I'm loving it. I also remodeled my website a little bit- click around and see what you can find!
It finally happened... after years of fretting and agonizing over what I want to do, what direction I want to go in, I made a choice. A monumental moment. Struck with inspiration, a calming sense of relief and a shift in all of the dimensions to align with my desires. It really felt like seeing the person I'm going to spend the rest of my life with for the first time (or what I imagine it would feel like). I just know.
One of my favorite quotes from my adolescence-
“I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited.” ― Sylvia Plath
Now I still greatly appreciate the sentiment expressed in the passage; however, thankfully, I have successfully climbed past the chapter in my life this quote embodies so succinctly. This next chapter is full of learning my chosen path, growing and overcoming challenges, and pruning practices and habits that no longer serve me or the direction I've chosen. Essentially, growing up.
I /hated/ growing up when I was a child. Responsibility? Pfft. More like stress. I wanted to be young, playful, carefree, and have someone more responsible handle all the difficult things. AKA stay a kid forever.
Looking back, I can say I was mildly successful at shirking responsibility for quite a while. But what's more gratifying than not having to worry and doing whatever I want whenever I want? Surely there's nothing better, I used to think.
Purpose... purpose wins out. Purpose is the want in "whatever & whenever I want." And finally feeling purposeful is such an excellent gift I gave myself.
What a lovely feeling! Here's to purpose.
Til next time,